How I wish I'd known about you sooner. How I wish I found out earlier that someone like you exists. How I wish this is perfect world so may then, by whatever chance, we can be together.
I spent an entire two months looking for you. And I have learned to love the person I created in lieu of you. But now, now that I finally had a glimpse of what you really are, I have fallen even deeper.
My heart skipped a beat, or two, I wasn't able to count cause I was so surprised of seeing your profile. If you must know, yes, I've been looking for you in Facebook (thank God for Mark Zuckersomething). I screamed like 7 year old boy when I saw your picture smiling, I swear I would have kissed you through my laptop if it wasn't for the the little manners left in me. It took me some time to finally click on your name and see...that you are in very happy relationship.
And just like those cliched romantic movies I hate, a music came in from somewhere, and I feel tears streaming down my face. Yes, I am crying over a crush. Sue me.
I cried for like ten minutes or so.
Since seeing you smile, I have prayed hard to all the gods I know from different religions to raise their hands and create a miracle that you and I will be together, forever. No return, no exchange. But oh! the universe is always so playful.
I am hurt. I want you to be happy, believe me. But somehow I also want you to be with me. It's far fetched, but so was the moon landing and they did it so maybe it will happen. Anyway, I've followed you in three social networking site so I think that is enough. I will start the moving on process just like the others that came before you. Why am I always like this.
Anyway, I just felt like writing it all out. I can't afford a bottle of vodka now because I'm so poor. If you are reading this, which is very impossible but either way, I just want you to know that I think you're perfect. Your smile, your grammar, your wit, the way you love books and coffee, I love them all. I know youre happy. And I wish you nothing but happiness. Maybe someday we'll meet, maybe not. But...